I had given up on here and gone to sit downstairs on the sofa when I remembered that I hadn't posted anything today that makes me happy. It's the last day, and I'll admit that my record so far has been woefully inadequate, but then, it hasn't been my best of weeks :(
I was thinking about loneliness and having to face up to a life of being on my own, though, really, how different is that from the way I feel now? And I thought, because I don't expect ever again to have a 'significant other' in my life, never again to be part of a couple or have someone to rely on, well it's easy to start feeling sorry for yourself.
And I thought how lucky I am to have such good frineds - ordinary, everyday frineds who will pitch in with practical advice and help and share a joke or a hug, friends across the world who I know would be glad to see me if we could meet. And online friends, that strange and random group of people who have found themselves washed up here, and who pop up from nowhere, offering kindness and sharing and laughter and chat and one in particular who has been there for me today who I hope i haven't upset.
so that's the one thing I offer today as a source of happiness, to help keep me going through difficult times. If you have friends, remember how lucky you are, and never take them for granted.
Good night, my friends.
xxx