Further adventures in Surreality

Playing the Tom Petty album 'Wild flowers' (actually I'm copying it onto the computer because it's Hubby's CD and I don't want to lose it), and I'd forgotten that the third track,
after 'Wild flowers'
http://melinda-in-surreality.blog.co.uk/2008/10/26/wild-flowers-4935522
and 'You don't know...'
http://melinda-in-surreality.blog.co.uk/2008/10/26/you-don-t-know-how-it-feels-4936060

... is this one:

'..like a deer in the headlights,
Frozen in real time,
I'm losing my mind...'

Please don' feel obliged to watch it all the way through.

I had given up on here and gone to sit downstairs on the sofa when I remembered that I hadn't posted anything today that makes me happy. It's the last day, and I'll admit that my record so far has been woefully inadequate, but then, it hasn't been my best of weeks
I was thinking about loneliness and having to face up to a life of being on my own, though, really, how different is that from the way I feel now? And I thought, because I don't expect ever again to have a 'significant other' in my life, never again to be part of a couple or have someone to rely on, well it's easy to start feeling sorry for yourself.
And I thought how lucky I am to have such good frineds - ordinary, everyday frineds who will pitch in with practical advice and help and share a joke or a hug, friends across the world who I know would be glad to see me if we could meet. And online friends, that strange and random group of people who have found themselves washed up here, and who pop up from nowhere, offering kindness and sharing and laughter and chat and one in particular who has been there for me today who I hope i haven't upset.
so that's the one thing I offer today as a source of happiness, to help keep me going through difficult times. If you have friends, remember how lucky you are, and never take them for granted.
Good night, my friends.
xxx

OK, I ate some of the chocolate I bought at Berlin airport - the macadamia nut one, and the 99% cocoa one.
Can I count that???

... and very 'Melinda'
I may keep this as my profile

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... What did I do/say to deserve those???

I can't remember how many days behind I am by now
Well, my daughter came to see me yesterday, so that was good
And I went to meditation group.
So, that's two.
Anything good for Wednesday? Can't remember, so can I use one from the two yesterday?
And what about today???
Hmmmm... that's a challenge

Why so many people have changed their profile photos today???
Is something going on that I don't know about?
Am I just being naive? (Wouldn't be the first time ...)
Or being excluded from something that everybody else knows about (That wouldn't be the first time either )
Weird...

Today it says:
'Live for each other'.
I've spent my whole life trying to live for other people, thinking that would bring me happiness.
It didn't.

I forget this again, didn't I?
Damn
There's got to be something I suppose, but right now I can't think of anything worth mentioning.